The 5 Stages of Thesis Grief
Writing a thesis consumes you, much like the grief that consumes one who has lost a beloved ego. It’s a constant battle of coming to terms with the fallacy that your thesis will be perfect and read by even a handful of people. However, what’s great about this class is that everyone is grieving over their respective theses together, and grieving together is far better than grieving apart. While I offer these words (mostly) in gest, I think it’s helpful to understand how personal the experience of writing a thesis and being part of an Honors cohort is. Below, I have described the 5 stages of “thesis grief” that a student may experience. It’s best to be aware of and prepared for these unavoidable feelings. However, the feelings may be less severe if one set’s writing goals and sticks to their writing schedule! (Which your Honors instructor and advisor will undoubtedly encourage you to do.)
Denial
This stage lasts from when class first starts to roughly Spring Break when the first full draft is due. A time during which one attends class and completes class assignments, but only intermittently works on the writing part of their thesis. During this stage, the student is so overwhelmed by the work ahead of them, that they choose to remain assured that they will finish their thesis on time, even though they’re ignoring the issue. The deadline is far away and hopes are still high.
Anger
All of a sudden it’s Spring Break and you realize that you have about a month to finish your thesis and you are angry, you are belligerent, because you want your thesis to be earth-shatteringly interesting when you have a month to do so. You have already done more for your Honors thesis in half a semester than you would do in an entire semester for any other class and you still have vastly more to do. You begin to feel very anxious and stressed about said thesis.
Bartering
It’s early April and you’ve realized that you bit off way more than you could chew when it comes to this thesis and it’s time to realistically decide what you can finish in time for graduation. Finally, a realistic plan materializes and you just gotta go for it. You’re writing day and night, but all the while you think of how much better this could be if you had more time, and knew what you were doing six months ago.
Depression
Wow, you look at what you’ve written and it just makes you sad. You fixate on the imperfections despite your Honors instructor and advisor pointing out the numerous contributions and insights that you have also generated by this point. Their glass half-full “good grief” nonsense visciously ignores the part that remains half empty. You care so deeply and wish for your paper to be monumental, but it’s not and never had a chance to be. Your advisor cuts the limitations section in your discussion from a mountain of confession into a measely paragraph of prudent professional acknowledgement. Tears follow (hopefully not too many, haha).
Acceptance
Once you’ve finished your thesis, you reflect on how traumatizing this process of composing a thesis has been, but also note how much better your next one will be because you’ve endured the harsh trials of your first thesis. While your thesis may still seem subpar to you, it’s likely that it’s still decent and you should be proud of what you produced, but even more proud of the fact that YOU DID IT! It’s not what you wrote: it’s what you learned. I was only able to write about 4 of the 10 trees species I was planning to write about in my thesis, but the writing I complete on future species will be so much better because I at least was able to cover 4. Finishing an undergraduate thesis is a crash course in understanding the realities of writing scholarly papers. You are now far more familiar than you were before and are ready to tackle the next one!
Ethan Iversen is a senior at the O’Neill School of Public and Environmental Affairs.